we speak in different voices

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3000 WORD ESSAY AND AN INFORMATIVE SPEECH BOTH DUE MONDAY
BOTH NOT STARTED

FUCK ME!

why so much rainnnn.
i forgot that florida always has a hot WET summer.


im excite and proud that my college has welcomed me back so happily and easily.
hooray for vermont next spring :) and hooray for my bachelors degree which will soon be mine.

mmmm
fun day! not.


i wish kain would stop licking his taint. hah
and i wish my windshield didnt have blue tape holding it together until the new sealant dries because i had to get the damn thing REPLACED.
THANKS A LOT.


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nap time.
next week ill be running wahoo myself from like 6am till 3 for monday tuesday and wednesday. visit.

props to myself for being the responsible one and saving a life hah <3

20 hours of driving, each way, is a really long drive but it was really nice to spend time with my family in Amherst and such. even though i missed my boo :)

it pisses me off how many healthfood stores there are up north, when we dont even have ONE decent one anywhere. wtf.



it also pisses me off that im working and theres no damn customers beachside. bleh. id rather be at home paying attention to my bluebeary whos birthday is tomorrow. yay happy birthday old geezer.




anyway- back to coffee making i suppose

youre just jealous that you are the <i>past</i>

and i am not only the present, but the <b>future</b>


haha ha



i wish i wasn't sick. :(
fever sux.

like a pirate.
hmm sooooo its that time again, fight or flight i guess it is usually described?

hmm.
how ironic to put it that way. hah.





i swear im like a gypsy.
if only i had a sweet wagon to put all my shit in.



i hope the rubenstein school has something GOOD to tell me, it might make all the differance in my life right now.

soooo
im waiting for penelope to have her babies...

i feel like I should be having babies, for all this worrying and stressing about her... and following her around to make sure she's not doing it when i'm not looking...
lol
jeeez.

come on and squish em outtt already ms. p.p.

new computer WEEEEEEEE



so exciteddd

i forgot my password and never felt like finding it again
heh go figure

buttt.... im sitting here waiting for my 7 loaves of banana bread to bake and i was bored so there it was... new password time.

its funny that the last time i wrote in here i was living in adam & krystles apartment and was really angry that i was in florida and very depressed and so on

and now im writing again and im living with adam and krystle again!
lol, but happily this time.
and my baby kain is all grown up and he wears sweaters (also happily...) like every big cat should. i will take a photograph some day.

i don't do much except be a homebody- when im not doing school work or helping at my store, for instance as i am now.

i MISS a few people out there in the world, but for those who don't miss me i probably don't miss them either.

i do have a new(er) number, however, so a few people probably dont have it (allie?) its 321 368 2608


and that's that.

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my fault my fault my fault.
my fault people dont talk to me
my fault idk how to make a girlfriend
my fault we're in florida
my fault you dont have a job
my fault i work 45hrs of the week


my baddddd






im sick, too.
wth

its amazing how ten minutes turns into twenty.

just like two months turns into many.



but many to you, is still two to me and you don't get any extra this time...






i havent really been enjoying, so far, my revisiting of brevard county.
basically all i do is work and work and work and i still havent even gotten my first pay check lol. which... i wont see anyway because my car payment needs to be paid... damn the man.

at least i like my job. fairvilla is prettttty fun.

im still in titusville staying with some very kind folk, who i cant believe are letting us stay here.
i feel like an intruder in their house :( butttt... i guess thats just me.

its rediculously nice of them to extend the hand. nobody else did...

only thing that sucks is the 45 minute drive to work, 5 days a week at 8am.... BLEH.



october 3rd i will prove to someone that i didn't break the promise they thought i did.

seriously...

times almost up

asheville.... makes me happy.
not as happy as my boyfriend does though.

can you imagine me stuffing stuffed-bears for wee children?

i just dont know

"see its my super spoon. you try to fuck with it and it will fuck with YOU!"
-mom

i want to move to a little fisherman town where you know all your neighbors and you can walk to whatever you need, and outside your windows are ocean and pretty boats and docks.. like Menemsha.

dont say i don't cut, when i do
i do
i do

dont say im lying, when i'm true
i'm true
i'm true










>confusion always sets back in
>>i find myself changing and learning all the time, but today the thing i learned is somethings never change.
>>>occationally i wish i was 25. choices then are already made for me ahahaha :)

<3